With trepidation I count down the days
Inlaws, outlaws, I’ll sit with the Fam
Intrinsic joyful memories, now muted with greys
Careful words, don’t choke on that ham
How dare he come here she says with a hiss
and bring that trollop back here to this town
conversation turns to warm yellow piss
oh my, awkward titter, I’m the wriggle clown
So I’ll keep my mouth shut, be discerning, give it a rest
Be the ambassador of xmas, presents, kisses and hugs
It’s all for the grandchildren,we must do our best
and not become xmas thugs
is it about forgiveness and love
maybe too close to the bone
double edged sword cut from above
Or am I just selfish for who wants to be alone
what would “J” do if he sat at our table
would his grace cover us all
empathy, willing and able
cracks in ridges, break down our wall
so I’ll just push past that day
and keep first in my mind
emotions will run and play
freedom is love, so let’s be kind
will my future self look back to say
what a splendid person you are today
Ariel 