She said, I have hatred in me
that’s who I am now, who I be
they left their kids for me to care
my son I buried, my minds not there
time stood still the day James died
why me, my baby, why now, I cried
loss, I have lost, I think I am dead
my anger, turns over, the nights I dread
for I have hatred in my heart
towards the parents who take their kids for granted
cause home and the heart is where loves planted
love your family, be kind and grow
connect, relationships we give, I know
but they don’t even care
their time is spent elsewhere
I think that maybe, I will drink
Numb myself, who wants to think
Then I could fall apart and wallow
But I suck it up, the bitterness I swallow
I’m only 28 but feel like 80
now little things just seem to grate me
six months in, each day I cry
I never got to say goodbye
Ariel 